|My two oldest demonstrating how much I stink at times.|
Many times I’ve tried explaining to people that I’m really not a patient person, but I gave up when they didn’t believe me on the first or even second try. Now I don’t even bother trying to change their mind and it’s nice believing their misconception of me. It makes me feel better about myself. I feel more mature, put together, spiritual.
Sounds sickening, doesn’t it?
Yeah. It does. Especially when the truth is ugly.
It’s not patience people see when they see me sitting so calm and smiley.
That’s a big, bad word in my vocabulary.
But it’s true. It’s true of me.
Why did Linda call me patient? I have a manuscript she’s been shopping and an editor is showing interest in it. (YAY!!) If there’s one thing you can count on in the publishing business, it’s that things take time. Lots of time. It’s hurry up and wait. And wait. And wait. Quite often I’m okay with all that waiting. But not because I’m patient.
I’m okay with it because as long as I’m waiting, I don’t have to be doing anything with it. I can complacently bob on the waves of that particular harbor, waiting.
It’s sheer laziness on my part.
|My oldest masquerading.|
Laziness is not a virtue to be proud of. Just look at some of what the Bible has to say about laziness…
The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the soul of the diligent is made fat. ~Prov.13:4Nasty, huh?!
The sluggard does not plow after the autumn, so he begs during the harvest and has nothing. ~Prov 20:4
The desire of the sluggard puts him to death, for his hands refuse to work; ~Prov 21:25
I’ve been working hard to change things in my life. I want what looks like patience to BE patience, not laziness. It’s not an easy change to make but it’s a worthwhile one.
How about you? Does laziness masquerade as patience in your life? Maybe laziness isn’t an issue for you but something else is. Are you ready to call it what it is and deal with it?